WOW! ITS BEEN 7MONTHS!!!!

Wow! i cant believe that i havent written on here in 7 months!!! alot has gone on in my life and for the better i have to say!!!! i have grown closer to God and have more clientele for my business!! my daughter is absolutely growing like a weed!!!! but i do have to say that i do not make cakes any more..... its a bitter sweet feeling.....but my time is consumed with raising a daughter running a business and making hair bows!!!!!!! yes i know what youre probably thinking....' man that girl doesnt know how to stay doing one thing!' well i do have to say that i will be doing hair for a long while! i do like doing it and i get to help people feel better about themselves!!! the hair bows just came out one day! i have made hair bows for my daughter for a while now and i i had a client ask if she could buy them from me..... and my hair bows making all started from that!!! i know what youre thinking....' is she going to change the name of her blog???' i have thought about it and i have no idea what im going to do! i do think that making hair bows is relaxing to me...and i get to sale them and make girls feel pretty too!!! i am still waiting on my husband to find me ....but until then i am pretty content on where im at in life! My Jesus knows what i need and want and when is the best time to give me what i need and want. i trust Him Fully with my life and my daughters. thats the only way to go!!! Until next time ladies and gents!!!!! i promise to write something more often!!!!! :)

Completely Broken......

Its been a loooonnnggg time since i have posted a new blog.....A lot of things going on in life....... new job, new business, 2 year old and LIFE! Life can take turns and twists and go to the left and to the right and go backwards and well try to completely turn your world upside down! this is so in my life but i have come to realize that my life was upside down before i met Jesus and He turned my life Right side up! This year i have come to Know Jesus in a whole different way..... some could say 'through new eyes....' i do agree with this for the mere fact that i have lived through this. You see through new eyes because Jesus gave us a new way to look at things........ going through a storm??? Ask God to show you how to look through His eyes...... The storm did not change the way you look at the storm changes. You magnify God in the storm and the storm looks like it doesn't even exist. Why? Because your eyes are fixed on the One who can make everything better! Yes the storms come and go but its your choice whether to stay in the storm or go THROUGH the storm. God said He would never leave us nor forsake us.....so what makes us think that the storm is bigger than God?? the devil.......he paints a good picture of that.

I have recently gone through and is still going through a storm in my life. I would like to share it with you..........maybe someone out there is going through something simular and this may help you as it helped me......... the storm that i am going THROUGH has taken a toll on me mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I honestly can say that this is the hardest thing that i have done in my walk with God. As many people who know me know that i do not move until God tells me to move. God has to shout it in my face or slap me around or just that still small voice that just captures me and take me breath away.......... i have had to learn to lay it at the cross......stay there and mourn a little bit because part of me has died...... and get up turn around and leave it at the Cross. But something happens when I'm at the cross........all my emotions are just going crazy and i don't know what I'm feeling.........I'm just there trying to figure all of this out........ But its not for me to figure out and put the right pieces where they go........ it happens because at the cross I am BROKEN. God knew that this storm was coming .......God knew what i was going to choose......... God Knew that this was the perfect time to make me exactly what He wants me to be. God knew that i was going to be broken..........He knew that i was going to come to Him to be put back together...........Then and only then I had let God in to put me back together how He wanted me to be......... You see when i was at the cross i saw Jesus on that cross....... all my feelings were His that day He hung there on that tree.........When i was heartbroken and wondered why i was going through all of this........wondering why all my emotions were going crazy....Jesus showed me His feelings that day He Died For ALL Of Us........ He Literally had a BROKEN Heart.........He wondered why He was even doing what He was doing BROKEN.....for people who were going to use Him......... for people that didn't care what they did to Him.........FOR PEOPLE .............He did it so that WE could live with Him in HEAVEN! He was BROKEN COMPLETELY for us! And He wants us to be COMPLETELY BROKEN so that He can Put us back together the way He wants us!

I want to let you in my Little Piece of Revelation that has helped me go THROUGH this storm..............

..............' God just heal me from the inside out. Make me yours 100%! I honestly don't know how to feel? I want to say that i feel broken? like I'm in a million different pieces.....and i know that You can put all those pieces back together to make a BRAND NEW ME! Is that what its all about???? I had to be Broken? Broken so that You can put me back together the way You want me?? Not the way I want to be?? Show me Your way GOD! Show me what You want me to do! Put me together the way You want me! Let me hear You and See You through New Eyes! Through Your Eyes! Show me what You want me to see! Show me how to Forgive . Forgive the right way! Your Way! i want the Best for ma and for Anaiah. I know that you have the Best Daddy and Husband for us!!But now i know that You cant give everything that you want to give to me because i had to be Broken first. Broken from everything that i was and all I was carrying. And that was the only way i could have been COMPLETELY BROKEN. Now you are putting me back together the way YOU WANT ME! More in You! More in tune with You! More dependent on You and totally on You! Get more into You! Hide inside You!

Thank You Crystal and Johnathan for talking to me and praying for me....Thank you Jennifer for being the Vessel that brought me to this revelation in my life.........You guys are True GOD Friends.........and I thank GOD for You everyday!

Today Is The First Day Of The Rest Of My Life!!!!!

I'm sorry that i haven't been able to blog in a while......the last month of school was crazy!!! and then the holidays and trying to start working....wow! its been something else....none the less an awesome experience! well lets see if i can catch up on whats been going on......the last month of school was crazy hectic and very stressful! In cosmetology you have to clock hours just like you would at a job......clock in and clock out.......well in order to finish and take your state board written and practical test you have to have 1500 hours......well i finished three weeks before school had ended took both test while i was in school still and i was a professional before i even got out of school! i was so excited and shocked at the same time! For the first time since I've had Anaiah i have actually finished something! I was so proud of myself! well then here come the holidays and food and presents for the kids....... i started working as soon as i could and have been loving every minute of it! It feels so good to actually make money and love what you are doing t the same time........I love that i can chose my schedule and be there when Anaiah needs me. well i have actually walked the stage yet for graduating because they hold the big graduation in may. i wasn't going to until i thought of Anaiah.... and how it would be to have her see me walk the stage and show her pictures when i did graduate and i did it for her. to show her that i did it and she can do it too!! so with all that said i have to look at myself in about five different mirrors everyday and noticed that while being in school i had gain a lot of weight! so i decided to go on a healthy kind of diet...... eating 5 to 6 times a day, little meals, like turkey breast, cucumbers, chicken breast, fish, greens, drinking lots of water...................So hopefully i will lose the weight, look great for graduation and be a better healthier mom for Anaiah!!! So follow me in this awesome life changing event and hopefully i have encouraged you to lead a better healthier life and lets live a awesome life together!!!!!

And God Said.."Hes On His Way Miranda..."

Well as you all know ...the ones who read my blogs......i am in school to be a hair dresser and i do cakes for extra money....i have been really busy as far as school and cakes....Well God is so Good! God has a way of telling you what you need to do in order to get closer to him.....I had the feeling in the pit of my stomach saying Miranda Get closer to Me...Worship Me.....I know that This feeling.... this still small voice is Him Talking to me.......Telling me what i need to do....so I listen....i quit hanging out with the people that He tells me to.....worship him the first thing i do when i wake up.....mind you i do make alot of mistakes through out the day....But its the best feeling....Getting closer to Him.......Well God honors the obedient...I had been praying on what i was to do when i got out of school...where i was to work......and never really felt peace about any places in my town......untill i looked in the paper on day.....and there was a small hair shop for sale....well to make a long story short.... my family went to go and look at it and felt the Peace of God all over me........ Knew that this was where i was supposed to be....just knew it.......so we bought a hair shop!!! Its called THAT HAIR SHOP! I am so excited about this and I know that it will work because God is in the Middle of it all!!! Knowing that God is faithful and what He says is True! SO with all that said.......i wanted to share an experience that i had with you all....I had been praying for my future husband and asking God when he was coming..........." You know God i need a husband and most of all Anaiah needs a Daddy..." well i would see couples and her people talk about their loves....and well here was i ...in the middle of all of this .....wondering when it was going to be my turn........" God i know that your timing is perfect but can you speed up Your timing because I know im ready....i know that You know that im ready......" well needless to say i couldnt hear anything ........getting fusterated at this point.....started getting into the whole worshipp thing....changed my alarm to a worship song so thats what i woke up to ......listening to my worship music on my mp3 player on the way to school and while i was fixing my hair in the morning.......praying that i would live better for Jesus that day........One night i was praying before i went to sleep and told God that i was laying all of my burdens at the cross...at His feet and that i was not going to pick it up...i was going to let Him take care of it.......went to sleep.........6am i hear my alarm going off...worship music...."sweetly broken....."...then all of a sudden i start smelling the perfect awesome sweet smelling calogne i have ever smelt.......mind you my eyes are still closed......reached under my pillow .....hit snooze.....smell went away.........alarm going off........"sweetly broken...." smell comes back........hit snooze.....smell went away.......ok at this point i open my eyes and wonder if theres someone in my room .....looking around....... kinda confused ....wondering what is going on.......start praying......" Jesus what is going on......i dont understand......" Peace fills the room ....Gods peace.....very thick........ i close my eyes once again.....alarm goes off........"sweetly broken....." ....the smell of the sweet smelling cologne had come back into the room.......only this time.......stronger but not over powering........Peace came over me........i laid there....listening........"Hes On His Way Miranda........"

Looking on the inside.....getting closer to HIM

I have been wondering why there isn't any single christian guys in our church as you may know from my last posting.....well it dawned on me......what if its me?? What if im not right where I need to be?? So I started looking on the inside....what part of me wasnt in line with the WORD.....I found alot of things that I could work on as far as I go.......like working on not being so introverted.......I starting telling myself that i used to not be that way....and what had changed in my life that I had turned to not conversating with anyone. Now for those of you that know me know that I used to be this very outgoing person and would love to have a conversation with the wall......if they listened I would talk .......that can be a good thing and a bad thing.......I used to be the person that wouldnt mind going out to dinner and keeping up with my friends.....man how things change in a hurry and its been years that i havent been myself now that I think of it...... so now im this person that barely talks to anyone at church.... I dont hang out with any of my friends that have encouraged me..... im all about staying home...now dont get me wrong im not saying that going out all the time is good......I have responsibilities .....I have this kinda sense that im just in a routine...... thats it! a routine! I did have a bad relationship that lasted 3 years....while I was in that relationship I thought that was it...this is the one for me......I fell head over heals for this guy......yet I should have know that it wasnt going to work .....he didnt go to church.....everything else was good but I realize now that if church wasnt his priority then I would have never work.......needless to say he sucked the life right out of me....... I was knocked down but not knocked out........I left him......moved back to my parents.......suffered some humility......and got up off the ground and started moving forward...... I thought to myself "Im a strong woman...I can do this...." well now I realized that I got up dusted myself off and started walking the right way I think........and somewhere in walking I stopped.....stopped moving....stopped looking......stopped wanting ........just stopped

I noticed a difference in me around my birthday of this year ........it was like a tug on the inside .....my eyes were opened......opened too things that I didnt realize that i was doing ..... things that I was saying...... I felt at that time that I needed to let go of people that were not encouraging me in the Lord...now dont get me wrong the people that I let go were very dear to my heart and it was very hard for me to do it......I still love them ..... very uncomfortable thing to do...but I needed to get closer to HIM...... I wanted HIM...... Now here I am wondering why I cant find any single christian guys anywhere......to me I feel its just another level.... another step to getting closer to HIM.......So HE tells me......" Miranda how about looking on the inside..." ...... WOW! like my eyes are open again.....open again to something else i need to work on...... HE says "Where are you?", " Who are you?", " What do you stand for?"............man this gave me alot to think about........Where am I?, Who am I?, What do I stand for?........... WHERE AM I? I am not where i need to be....not in HIS presence.....WHO AM I? I am a single mom who wants a companion.......WHAT DO I STAND FOR? I stand on the ROCK and thats about it....... Now I started looking at this and I thought to myself no wonder no one has come into my life....... I dont even want me!.........so I told myself Im getting right!!! Im going to get closer to HIM if I have to stay up all night and just be quiet to hear HIM........If I have to stay on my knees until I know that I have heard HIM........FIGHT to be a worshipper......to see HIS face not just HIS presence. WHERE AM I? Im on my way to see the ALMIGHTY!...WHO AM I? I am a child of the LIVING GOD....the head and not the tail.....above only and not beneath.... WHAT DO I STAND FOR? THE UNCOMPROMISING WORD OF GOD!............. I know that it will be a tough road.....and it will be uncomfortable....out of my comfort zone......Thats how I know that Im on the right road because my flesh doesnt like it....... Im on the road to recovery.......on the road to getting my life back...... on the road to finding myself in HIM

Where are the Single Christian Guys?!?!?

Well tomorrow is back to school.....not really ready to go but I'm really ready to get this last semester over with....I was at church this morning and i was looking out in the crowd and noticed that there aren't any good SINGLE christian guys in our church! Now don't get me wrong that's not why I go to church and I have noticed this before but to actually realize that there is not anyone that's a single male (with or without children) christian , on fire for God in our church! this evening we had our annual church picnic and noticed it even more! There is no one to talk to....you look all around and you see couples everywhere! sometimes I just feel out of place...but I know that's the devil.....it just would be nice to talk to someone in the same boat as you are...you get me? So with this said I decided to start praying for single on fire for God people to come into our church......God knows my heart and He knows what I am looking for or more important what Hes looking for for me. He knows what I need and what my daughter needs. I need a husband who's going to be a God fearing man, protector, a listener, head and not the tail, and a help meet. My daughter needs a God fearing father....a dad, one whose going to be there for her in any situation, and to love her like his own, to be that daddy figure in her life, to show here how shes to be treated..... so with this little tid bit said I'm going to be praying ......praying till it comes to past......Ill let yall know when it manifests!!

Looking Toward the Future!!! Finding HIM!!

Hello friends! i was just thinking about what my life is going to be like when I get out of school ...and how things are going to change....for the better of course......I will finally have a career that I can say that I worked for.......I will be able to provide for my daughter....and in the long run......Anaiah and I will be better than ever!!!!I know that God has everything to do with my future because I trust in Him and I have Faith in Him. My God helps me everyday...He gets me through....and He knows what He is doing in my life as long as I let Him....He is my focus.....I know that with His favor on my life that I will be able and willing to provide for my daughter and never lack! I will have customers that ask for me and have my regulars!!!I will provide them with the best service that I know how. I know that I have to let go of whats in my hand so that He can let go of whats in His hand for me. And as for my cakes I will still do them as long as God tells me.......I want to be so in tuned with Him that I never have to wonder or question if I can hear Him. I also want to be a true WORSHIPER. To understand and know what true worship is. To get in His presence and stay there........To push through all of the bad, crazy, hectic, whirlwind, stuff out there and get through to His presence. Not just to get in His presence but to get there and know His face. Every line every detail. TRULY KNOW HIS FACE!If this is to encourage anyone out there.....I hope it encourages you to the right thing.....to get on track......on the right path to Find HIM. Someone once told me.........To find Him is for us to move in the right path because He never moved....we are the ones who keep moving and God is right there the whole time waiting for us to see Him. So I encourage you...do whatever it takes to get to the presence of God.......Get on your knees....get on your face......throw your hands in the air and just surrender everything to Him......be a true WORSHIPER....push through anything ans everything that's going on in your life and just focus on Him.....That's the best place to be!!!